my bloghead 7-and Just to Top it All

This past year has been a difficult one not only for myself but family and friends. Cancer is a challenge and it can sometimes feel like climbing a mountain, backwards, and keeping myself fit has been one helluva challenge. Under 'normal' circumstances I would just fill up a ruck sack or go a run over the sand dunes or on my trusty fatbike and get some mileage in. But since taking the hormone treatment, my energy levels have almost halved. Some say its old age but we all know our bodies well enough to know what fitness levels we have and I know it isn't age. But. This past few weeks my knee has been really bothering me making training worse and then....last Monday, my knee packed in.

I ended up in hospital.

Sitting here in the hospital bed in pain gave me a bit of time to reflect and my mother swears that there is someone up there watching over us and they are making moves to slow me down. Sometimes, when you are told you have something like cancer your wee mind goes into overdrive and you start to think of your mortality and for me I think I have fell into the trap of trying to cram too much in before 'its too late'!! Getting this knee injury made me realise that it might not be the cancer that gets me it could be anything. You realise how fragile your body is when you get an injury that stops you right on your tracks. The cancer slowed me down a bit but this knee injury has basically stopped me.

So, with a bit of physiotherapy and painkillers hopefully the knee will progress. Just like my cancer treatment, a bit of hormone therapy and radiotherapy will hopefully aid the fight and I can progress even further.

I will admit, there was a point this week when I could have chucked the towel in but the power of family and friends is immense and the great professional NHS staff who work hard every day to keep this body of mine fit to tackle life played their role to.

Three years ago, I sat on top of Ben Nevis singing my wee heart off for a cancer charity and never ever thought it would be me I would be singing for in the future. When I look at the picture of me on top of the mountain it inspires me to reach that mountain top again in the future. Hopefully you to.